So yesterday on the New Moon, when I got home from work, I went out to the Moon Lodge, meditated, listened to some music and wrote down some intentions. I hope you all got a chance to do so as well?
Then I hopped on a Virtual Circle at 7:30pm with my wonderful Canadian friend Kerrin L McIntosh of Pathways who shared lots of information, tidbits, astrology, stories … lovely. And what really stuck was … 2017 astrologically begins another 9 year cycle. Makes sense in my life as I think back to 2007 what was finishing (my first marriage) and what I was beginning. It does feel rather to have come to a completion for me. And I find myself facing similar but yet different problems: ones I have no intention of handling the same way I did back then.
In our New Moon Circle last year, our theme was ‘Becoming Big’; although I may have took it as permission to gain a few, a-hem, pounds, more importantly, I also took it as permission to ‘carve my space.’ How many of us go through life apologizing? ‘I’m sorry, but I don’t think …” Hesitantly taking each breath wondering if we are worthy.
As Marianne Williamson’s famous quote says, ‘your playing small does not serve the world.’
You were put here for a reason.
I”m not saying go ahead and steal that parking space or your neighbor’s newspaper. I’m saying to breathe deeply, look within and as long as you are continually asking are my desires and goals ultimately for the benefit of all?, then exercise that will.
My husband recently lost a long term consulative job because they had him take a personality test, and they came back saying he did not score high enough in ‘power/leadership’.
They actually had a question about do you enjoy manipulating others to get your way. Well, no! He is not that type at all, but that has nothing to do with true power and true leadership.
We are all part of one big cog. You figuring out your part in the ‘machine’ enables others to go farther as well.
So that’s what keeps coming back to me about this next year.
Who are you?
You’ve carved that space, you’ve stepped into it timidly feeling and exploring your power. But who are you … really??
And in order to do figure that out, have you put into place your support network?
Contemplating my ‘similar yet different’ problems, I realize that I have been able to put into place a rather awesome ‘web’ of people. They ‘hold’ me, and I hope that they feel me holding them as well.
I grew up in a very nuclear family: just my mother, my father and me. My father died over 20 years ago. My brother and I were never close and do not speak, and not because she does not care, but because she does not know how, my mother has never been much of an emotional support to me.
Just yesterday, I was telling her about some very real and some very serious personal issues I have, and after I poured out my heart, she said, ‘I’m sorry. I wish it were not that way. Did you get the skates I sent you?’
Lol. That has been about the extent of her advice and suggestions. So growing up, I turned to books and made oh so many friends between the covers and amidst the pages. And books are lovely mentors in some ways but lousy in others.
And you may not be able to find those people living in your community, but reach out, use the Find A Womens Circle website and connect via all of those incredible virtual online offerings out there. There are so many to fill so many different personalities, desires and needs …
Just be careful, don’t ever let them tell you who you are. Only you can decide that. That is what is beautiful about the Women’s Circle concept of being ‘held’: you ‘hold’ the space for each other, to fully step in of your own accord.
Who are you??
*When I think about this ‘who are you’ theme, I always think of Mary Oliver’s lovely poem:
“You only have to let the soft animal of your body
Love what it loves.”