My first ‘real’ job was at the regional headquarters for Canon in Dallas.  I was making good money.  I had gotten my own apartment.  My responsibility was to assist the Regional Sales Manager with facsimile sales in our entire region.   And I enjoyed it.

I had projects which were large.  This was in 1994, and unbelievably, for a technology company, Canon was woefully behind.  So we were setting up a Microsoft Access database and creating report systems.

My father used to call me at work.  I would be brief, ‘got to go, Dad’.  I’m working and do not have time.

And then he died.  He went to get milk, had a massive heart attack and passed away instantly.

My whole life changed. I quit the job and followed my newly married husband up to the Air Force base in North Dakota where he had been assigned.  Away from Texas where I had grown up and in the snow of North Dakota, working at a sales job with a husband that I did know how to get along with and in the midst of the grief of losing my father, I started to have panic attacks.

I never could remember what the project I was working on was about.

It no longer mattered.

We’ve all had those ‘before’ and ‘after’ moments when something monumental shifts the perspective in our lives.

We’ve never quite had a collective one like what we are experiencing now.

But that is what I find myself doing right now:  ‘sifting’.  ‘This’ matters.  ‘This’ does not.

When you are given this gift in your life and you truly use it, the results are amazing.

We have all been given this gift.


“Like a king whose crown signifies order in the kingdom, the crown chakra represents the ruling principle of life – the place where the underlying order and meaning of all things is ultimately perceived.” 

The Seventh Chakra, ‘Thought’ in Wheels of Life by Anodea Judith, PhD

Meditation from Wheels of Life:

* Music by Aurora

“To ancient wisdom found within, a sacred place where we begin.

And ending, here we shall return; reconnected we have learned

to know divinity inside and bring it forth with honored price.

The key within our minds we hold, to mysteries we shall unfold;

Gateway to the worlds beyond,

In sacred space and peace we bond.”

The Wheels of Life


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