What Were You Doing in 2012?

You don’t have to be into Astrology to realize that we are in some transitionary times:  technology, evolution, divinity … whatever you would like to call it, but things are changing.

If you do follow Astrology, you will keep hearing about how important 2012 as the precursor to what is most likely going on in your life right now …

So I think back to my 2012 … I had my 4th child, my fiery Aries who dang near killed me.  Two turbulent marriages, court proceedings, different parenting styles, extended family issues, job issues, financial challenges … things had not been easy the previous 12 years.  And this one, seriously ‘snuck on through’.  I was BEAT physically, 42 years old and found myself pregnant from one time not even in the correct time of my cycle.

She is my Kali.

And sometimes things have to be destroyed before they can be built back up.

My husband said everything changed when I took to my ‘Nest’ after having her.  He says it as if it were a choice 😉 … but I was DONE, could not even walk down the stairs.  It was my body screaming ‘REGROUP, REGROUP, REGROUP!’  … scariest feeling in the world.  I remember thinking that if there was a fire, I would not even be able to get out of the bed, that is how ‘done’ my body was.

And I had no other choice than to start trusting Her … and by HER, I mean HER … Divinity.

She is my Fight Song ..

Take Back My Life Song ..

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe
……Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion