*Card is of Clíodhna from Judith Shaw’s Celtic Oracle Deck: Divinatory Meaning: balance, beauty, love and healing.
“We all need to hold our centers around the upcoming Capricorn Full Moon (Wednesday, June 27, 9:52 pm PDT). As the hard-nosed Capricorn Moon joins retrograde Saturn and both oppose the sensitive Cancer Sun, frustration will be likely (especially in regard to backward authority figures). The Full Moon squares Chiron in Aries (the wounded masculine), which may evoke old pain and anger around the misuse of authoritarian power. Capricorn and Cancer represent the parental axis. How well are you caring for yourself and others? This Full Moon challenges you to behave responsibly. That might mean holding firmer boundaries at home or at work, taking charge of your own reactions rather than blaming others in a mean-spirited way, practicing more intensive self-care, or stepping up to defend those who most need it.”
We spoke about this in our Circle last night by the river. One woman said:
“I’m not even sure I have a Center.”
Well, how do you hold it then if you do not know if you have one …
We did not have time to discuss this much. The bugs had come out, and it was late. We all had partners, children and responsibilities to get back to … but it stayed with me through the night.
How do you find your Center?
We had begun the Circle with this Celtic Cross Prayer. I always ask the women to say some ‘I am …’ statements. And I’m always surprised when they cannot come up with but one or two.
I am courageous.
I am healthy.
I am wise.
I am loving.
I am forgiving.
I am compassionate.
So important these ‘I am…’ statements. Because if you do not have a map of where you want to go, how do you get there?
We hold everything.
We hold opposites.
So yes, I am courageous, healthy, wise, loving, forgiving and compassionate … sometimes.
At other times, I am fearful, sick, stupid, angry, hating, vengeful and stingy.
It just matters which ones I hold forefront in my mind and choose to act on.
Hold your Center.
Hold your ideals.
Lately, it feels like I have had six million things to do, and I struggle to get done four or five of them.
I feel overwhelmed and frustrated often.
And so I take a break.
Yes, maybe I should be working on that ‘To Do’ list, but instead I prioritize it and ask myself, ‘what do I really, truly have to get done today?’
My father gave me a great gift when he died. I had just started an important job .. my first ‘real’ job out of college. And he called me a lot.
I did not have time for him. I had tons of projects to work on. It was exciting, and I needed to prove myself. And it was important stuff I was working on …
And then my father got up on a Thursday and went out to get some milk and while driving there, had a heart attack and died instantly.
To this day, I cannot tell you one of those projects that I was working on.
My father’s gift was perspective.
If something tragic were to happen today, what on your ‘To Do list’ would truly be important? Not much I would guess. Then it does not truly need to be done today.
Hold your center and then do your most important work joyfully and intentionally.
Balance the opposites and keep forefront where you want to go and who you want to be.
You have an integral grand part to play. And your only job is to find it and do it to the best of your ability.
And at the same time, it is all … completely meaningless in the grand scheme of things.
The Earth is 4.5 billion years old. Our ancestors have been around for six million years: humans for the past 200,000 years. We’ve managed to scribble down and record in one form or the other for the past few thousand years … enough to know that human history has been filled with tsunamis and earthquakes and beheadings and burnings and starvation and plague and a ton of unfairness … now what were you saying about living in the worst of times?
Put it in perspective.
Find your Center and hold it.
Creating ripples around the world. One circle at a time.