‘It is worse to stay where one does not belong at all than to wander about lost for a while and looking for the psychic and soulful kinship one requires. It is never a mistake to search for what one requires. Never.’
….‘There is an aspect of alchemy, wherein the base substance of lead is pounded about and beaten down. While exile is not a thing to desire for the fun of it, there is an unexpected gain from it; the gifts of exile are many. It takes out weakness by the pounding. It removes whininess, enables acute insight, heightens intuition, grants the power of keen observation and perspective that the ‘insider’ can never achieve.’ …“The wild psyche can endure exile. It makes us yearn that much more to free our own true nature and causes us to long for a culture to match. It makes a woman go on looking, and if she cannot find the culture that encourages her, then she usually decides to construct it herself. And that is good, for if she builds it, others who have been looking for a long time will mysteriously arrive one day enthusiastically proclaiming that they have been looking for this all along.”
Ch. 6 Belonging as Blessing. Women Who Run with the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes
I have lost a lot of friends and family over the past couple of years. Sometimes I feel this deeply. Just yesterday, my phone rang and it said ‘maybe Stacey’.
And I thought of this friend of mine. Or a ‘former’ friend of mine, who for reasons that I am not sure of at all, just decided we were no longer friends.
And the weather is gorgeous for this full moon. I wanted to host a circle down by the river, but circle attendance has been so light lately, and I do not want to go through all that effort of bringing things out there just to find that it is just me.
Sometimes that feels so very lonely, and I wonder perhaps I should not have taken this fork in the road. Perhaps I should go back to those faux relationships where I tried so hard to fit in and be someone I am not…
And then I think of some of these events that I have gone to … Daughters of the Earth. Midwest Herbal Conference. RCGI.
And everything shifts.
I think of the other women that I meet at these events who I feel such a kinship to. I think of the power radiating from them … women who have stepped in to their own skin and are comfortable and happy and proud living there.
I think of how when I leave these events I have learned so much, and my reality has shifted so that everything looks just a bit different. How when I look everywhere and at everyone I see such ‘Potential’.
If you have also been to these events, you know exactly what I am speaking of.
If you have not, GO … and FIND OUT. 😉